Touchdown for my Heart

I am screaming. In my head.

Completely freaking the Hell out. I did it. I wrote my first novel. Its a thing. Its on the web this very instant and that excites the living heck out of me.

I'm not joyful for the attention, though, I'm just incredibly blown away by my own achievement. Ever since I was a kid I wanted to write a book. And now there is a book floating out in the web that I wrote.

That's flippin awesome. Do I think it will be read? Sure! But the real reason I am so excited is because it just feels good to have it out. Like catharsis, this book feels like a weight has been lifted.

Almost like football.

First down. You wrote a chapter. Nice pass.
First down. You edited the chapter. Nice run, there.

Now where is the next first down marker?

I'm already working on this years novel and I'm pretty excited to explore that world, but right now I am just so glad that I have something to hang my hat on. Something to remind me what effort and persistence is capable of.

A symbol.

For my heart. How it weeps, how it thinks, how it hopes. But a symbol nevertheless.

What that symbol means to the reader is entirely their concern. What it meant to me was a sense of personal freedom.

A belief in myself, and a symbol for progress. "One small step for man, one giant leap for mankind." A symbol of triumph, of ingenuity and hard work.

So if I'm on that football field I just want to celebrate with my team for a second, because I just scored a touchdown. I wrote a novel.

And in a few minutes my mind will be traveling to the next place I want to share. Because one touchdown is never enough.

:)